After having held onto an enormous amount of resentment for many years (25+), I recently had what for me, was my “rock bottom” experience where I very nearly took my own life. Through the support of a close knit group of people around me, I am on the beginning of what is a completely “new” path. I’m working on releasing all that toxicity and forgiving both myself and others. My question is below.
I have had some exposure to what I’ll call “alt-Western” ideas about health and how negative emotions like anger, resentment, rage can affect the body negatively especially over the long term. Now that I really want to LIVE, can you offer any advice or hope that the impact of all those years can be healed, lessened or negated in any way?
Travis, Oregon, USA
After the rain comes the sun. Storms that destroy a village are painful nonetheless. Children left motherless, fishermen boat-less and businessmen without business. It is a passage of life that one must encounter with courage. The trials and tribulations of the third dimension are not fraught. The vessel which once took the man to capture fish, may be destroyed in the storm, yet the fishermen has not forgotten how to fish. From the Soul’s eye your full health is instaneous. The Soul holds the perfect knowing of your health, balance and wellness beyond the body. Call your soul into your body every day. It is simple. Imagine your higher self as a gold light hovering above the top of your head each morning when you wake. Feel your feet like magnets. Now open the crown of your head and feel the gold light of your higher self being pulled through your body all the way down to the souls of your feet. As well, begin each day feeling a shower of light, pristine white light, showering over your aura. Surrounding the body like a cocoon of light. The same way you step under the water of physical showerhead step under the invisible and real showerhead of white light daily and hourly as you wake. Re-engerize as often as you like.
I see you are a fisherman of life. You travel the seas of many emotions. Some days the emotions have been so strong, like a tidal wave, about to encompass your entire being and the desire to live with it. The seas have changed. The turbulent weathers may still abroad but, you have changed the navigation of your boat. The human being is designed to weather the storms of our emotions. The Soul is the compass to home. There are practices you can implement into your daily life for healing. First, for your physical body, it is suggested you improve your diet. Start each day with a healthy drink. A green fresh juice: kale, spinach, cucumber. Look up juices online. Add Superfoods (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Superfoods) or foods high in minerals, like seaweed, to your diet as well. Your body needs a lot of good minerals to counterbalance the years of acidity. Less fried food. Start here. Diet first. Next, it is suggested more sleep. It seems your sleep patterns have been wavering or non-existent for years. You need sleep. The body heals and restores itself during these hours. Spend less time on the computer. Take the computer out of your bedroom. Make an office separate from your bedroom.
For your emotional body, forgiveness, first of self, then others, is your key to healing the emotional body. Include the importance of your journey. Every feeling on your journey is valid. Get to know these feelings as indicators to you of some underlying need of yours that is either being met or not met. Work with a professional counselor. It is not uncommon to question life or one’s desire to continue living. After working in the field of energy healing and wellness for many years, I can tell you it is more uncommon for people to not question life than to question it. Now taking action of the feelings and succeeding in ending one’s life is another discussion. For our discussion please know you are not alone. You are one of many who has chosen the Earth School “lesson” about your desire to live through your desire to not live. Learn about the scientific research on forgiving. http://www.forgiving.org/ These are the best steps I see you can take for now.
If a weathered tree from a storm asked you “Please sir, can you tell me I will be healed of the effects of this storm? My branches are twisted, my bough is bent and my fruit has been stripped from my leaves? Now I see the sun has come out but, I fear I will never be the same.” In confidence, I imagine you may say “Dear little tree, you see this how you were designed, in perfection, to weather the storm. Your beauty lies in your twists and bends. Your fruit will grow again in season’s time. And now with your new leaves I still will sit and receive the shelter of your shade on a sun’s blazing day. I will receive the nectar of your fruit when it is your time to produce. Little tree, I love you even more for your resilience. You will still grow strong and be healthy. It is in your design.” And the same is true for you Travis. It is in your design to be healthy, to be well, to feel balance, and to heal. It is time now to release and return to the love that you are. You are love and loved. Thank-you for writing in to “Ask Alison”.